Malfunctioning Flowers

2009-09-14T14:13:00.000-07:00

This may come as a shock to many of you, but that February thing? Not going to happen. And by "come as a shock" I meant "seem pretty obvious". Ah, words.

I'm still doing stuff. And redoing stuff.

I drew something because this entry is boring.

That Satomi is one hell of a scientist.

NAMES ARE HARD

2009-06-13T16:58:00.000-07:00

I knew this would happen! I keep calling her the wrong thing in my head, so I guess it is too late now. At least it isn't bothering me anymore. Lots of people have weird names anyway. Also if anyone can get away with "Illustrious" as a middle name, then I can get away with a silly goddessy first name.

~~Names are hard. I've realized lately that I hate Selene's name. So I gave her a new one after many long hours of frustration and lots of trips to Behind the Name.~~

This is what we call a "Maria".
It sounds better, and also does not sound like a poorly planned fan character I would have made when I was about thirteen. Also it means that I don't have to remember to put 'se' or 'sa' instead of just 's' when scripting.
Have another drawing that is even older than the first one in this post:

~~I really need to figure out how to truncate posts on this thing.~~

no, go away, rumba by yourself

2009-03-25T09:39:00.000-07:00

Aaaaah, so wishy-washy.
"Let's do AVG... No no wait, let's do AVG and NVL! Or, or maybe it should just be NVL...? No, just AVG. Actually, no, yeah, both... (etc. etc. etc.)"

And then there's
"Aaah, now that I've played more of these mine feels so derivative! Even if I hadn't played any when I started writing. Nononononononononono."

But I guess I should stop worrying so much, haha. A... At least, uh, my characters aren't too bad? (hopefully)

Hrrrrm.

but you never knew

2009-03-14T18:25:00.000-07:00

Iris, in a warmer time.
Her torso is too long, but I didn't notice until, well, now, and I don't feel like doing anything about it.

I feel weeeeeiiiird today.

what a wonderful ... magic animal !

2009-02-26T15:48:00.000-08:00

My not-exactly-new goal is to finish writing (at least) by next February, by the way. Not exactly new because I decided this a few weeks ago. In fact, I decided this in order to prevent something like this from happening. Haha.
In other words, I don't want to rush, I just want to motivate myself to not procrastinate forever. If it turns out what I've got by next February is utter junk (or just not very good/unfinished/whatever), then I'll keep going. I don't know if this makes sense! Oh well.

I wish I had a laptop or something. I feel bad about using all of this paper, but generally I write better when I'm outside or somewhere comfy like my bed. Whine, whine.

I've been "playing" aisp@ce, which is an abomination brought to you by Niconico, Circus, Navel, Key, and all of the other companies listed when you first log in.
I don't even know what you're supposed to do after you run out of quests. Create the most annoying AI-tune ever? Sit around and watch the giant TV in Akihabara/any shopping district? Whine because you need more dere points to get those goddamn boots, and since the allowance is 1000d a day, it will take about a month, and by then you won't want them anymore? Go to a school and click on the dango/an (or whatever the dog from DC2 is called)/cat-things to watch them do cute surprised looking things?

Speaking of aisp@ce, maybe that is why I am better at writing outside or somewhere comfy like my bed. D: D: D:

and you may tell yourself: my god! what have I done?

2009-02-11T23:57:00.000-08:00

This is the redesign I talked about before.

Woah, it doesn't look as good as I remember. Prolly cause it's a few months old now. Also not as different as I remember. Really it's just the hairstyle and the clothes. The rest is about the same. Posting this has reminded me to look up what blazers really look like, because I can never remember the exacts. And it has also reminded me to remember that eyes are not that far apart. Ugh.

Writing writing writing. Slowly slowly slowly.

ah. pretty shining love. yay. unbelievable.

2009-01-08T21:35:00.000-08:00

This project is still alive. It feels fantastic and it's still alive.

I wish I was better at jogging than sprinting. Except with writing terms.

Elizabeth has a better design now. Her clothes look like something someone would actually wear. Or I would wear them, anyway. They also make her look tiny and cute. Hm. I think the other characters need better clothing, too. The more I like the way the characters look, the more I will want to write about them. I'm shallow like that.

Um. Naptime.

Damnit, Hanvon

2008-06-28T11:22:00.001-07:00

My tablet is not wooooooorking. :/

Minor setback?

I guess I should be focusing on writing right now anyway. :/

i am the stone that the builder refused

2008-06-24T10:31:00.000-07:00

Yay! Encouragement! I needed some of that. Too bad today I have stuff to do so I can't work on my script. I was having a lapse in motivation, which is always worrying.

Ladeeda~ I keep wanting to make a spiffy official website for this project, but it feels too early. Maybe I will wait until I have at least one route finished, and then we'll see~

Boing! I need to get the hell out of here before I miss my bus! D:

but what good is something if you can't have it until you die

2008-06-18T10:03:00.000-07:00

Looky, I redesigned Iris. Because she was sort of plain before. She's still very pink, but now she has glasses and different bangs/fringe/whateveryoucallit

Heat is hot and it makes me sad. Oh well.

All I have to do these days is look for jobs and work on my silly silly game.

I decided that I should just do everything at once, and then when everything is basically "done", I'll go over drawings and refine them. It's a lot simpler (for me anyway) to just get everything basically programed, and then go back and replace the images with ones that don't suck. And then I'm not wasting as much paper, haha. I just have to hold myself back on the refining of images that I am probably just going to replace in a few months anyway.

I've been playing Tsuyokiss and Da Capo II, for, uh, RESEARCH. Not really, but they do make me feel better about my writing. Well, not Tsuyokiss so much as Da Capo II. Soooo much fillerrrrrr. And my Japanese is still pretty bad, so it makes something that's probably meant to take maybe twenty minutes to get through take an hour or two.

Gwah, speaking of which, Satomi's physical characteristics are way too close to Nanaka's (DC2). I mean, they're the same height and weight, similar hairstyle... I designed Satomi before I even knew that there was a DC2, so... yeah. Not that I am accusing Circus of stealing my designs, that would be silly. I just hope that their personalities are different. Clones bother me. Grarrrgh.

i still i still i love you i'm waiting waiting forever

2008-04-17T12:26:00.001-07:00

These were mainly done to practice, but they turned out better than I thought they would. I have a feeling that when the time comes to program I will probably hate them, so I doubt these are final things. Besides, they are traced from a photograph, how lame is that? Then again, I'm probably better off doing it that way since I'm really bad at drawing anything that's not girls, deer, sanrio-esque animals, or bizarre, semi-psychedelic landscapes that wouldn't really fit into most of the game. Eh. Le shrug. Gah, it's so hard to get myself to wriiiite. I really like my story, and I have a lot of it written out in my head, but I can't get myself to just sit down and put it all on paper. Bah humbug, I suck at everything, whiney whine whine. :/
I forgot the rest of what I was going to say here.

i'll pull out my heart and i'll feed it to anyone

2008-04-13T14:40:00.000-07:00

I drew a new picture for Selene, because the other one was ugly and bad. I can't even figure out what's wrong with it, it was so bad. So... Here's a new one. Hip hip hooray.

people get sick, they play the wrong games

2008-04-11T10:26:00.001-07:00

Waha~
The last two main characters. Ms. Green-hair-with-ahoge is Elizabeth, and Ms. cranky-looking-short-whitish-hair is Iris. They're both pretty screwy anatomy-wise, but whatever. I like the coloring at least? They both look like they're going to fall over, oh well. And Elizabeth... She is going to cry herself to sleep on her giant pillow. :(
On the other hand, my coloring is getting better, little by little, and I keep getting faster each time. It's nice when I can actually see my own improvement. Not that this stuff is fantastic by any means, but I'm getting better. Hooray.

At least I'm not making the final sprites yet, and I won't be for a while, unless I suddenly get some super mega speed boost with writing (not likely).

Now I don't have an excuse to procrastinate on writing anymore. OR DO I? Probably. It starts with an "s" and ends with a "chool". But at least summertime is coming soon~ Hopefully that means nothing to do other than write write write. Wheee. No wait, that would be a lame summer. Then again, I think everyone I want to hang out with has summer classes, so. Hmm.

Man, I can't help but worry about music. I think if I put my mind to it, I could make some stuff that sounds at least decent, but I don't knooowwwww. Hehe. Oh well. I'll, ah, cross that bridge when I come to it. Which is... I don't know. The same time as drawing sprites so I don't get burnt out on either of them! Wheeeee! Alright, enough of this nonsense, I'm going to go do something now.

it's easier for me to get closer to heaven than ever be whole again

2008-04-07T20:09:00.001-07:00

This is not the picture I was talking about before, but who caaaaares. It is a Satomi! I think she looks fairly cute, at the least. I like the lines a lot for some reason. I literally mean the lines, because I really really suck at inking things. Some of it really bugs me, like, uh, the left hand, haha. And I'm sure it's easy to see where I got bored and gave up. I mean, hopefully, at least, and it's not that the whole drawing looks like that. D:
This was kind of a practice picture to get the hang of Artweaver. I had to find a new program because GIMP hates my tablet, mostly, but also because I couldn't figure out how to use all of the nifty features of other programs, etc etc etc.
How unfair, it seems like I draw Satomi the most out of all of the HPN characters. That will change when I get to the point of actually drawing for the game, I'm sure, but, eh.
I'm considering adding voice... clips. Like Zelda, having little, "ah?" and "oh" and "hehe" type sounds for the characters.

I did it!

2008-04-04T14:06:00.000-07:00

I made a blog to talk about my progress on my projects, finally. Because I like to pretend that people actually care, haha.

I made a logo. It feels so... wrong. Pretentious? I think that's it. Oh well. I wanted to add an image to the post, because it looks so empty compared to a lot of other projects' threads. This post is still lame though. That logo... Ugh. I guess that this kind of graphics design is not my strong point. The only thing I like about it is the font. Haha. I guess I'll just have to try harder when I make the real logo. If I ever get that far? Hehe. At least summer break is soon for me, which means I won't be wasting time procrastinating on homework. Ahaha. I'm so tempted to bump this thread, since, I don't know, I'm an attention whore? But it would probably be best if I waited waited waited until I had more to report than, "yeah, I've been working, and everything is planned out, but I still have a ton of writing to do, and I don't really know how to explain the story, blah-de-blah". Maybe I should make some kind of development blog instead of mashing everything into this post. In fact, I did it while updating that post, so now anything referring to this being on a message board is irrelevant and nonsensical. Oh well. I feel it is necessary to keep all of my old updates somewhere, so they're included underneath this ramble.
The fact that this is a blog means that I can ramble! I guess. Nyeh. I've been trying to improve my drawing and coloring skillzors lately, I'm not sure if I like the results or not. Perhaps tomorrow I'll post the drawing I am working on right now, if it's done by then/I don't hate it by then/I don't forget about this silly blog. Yeah, whatever. I'll shut up now.

Still alive on April 3 of 2008! I haven't been writing as much lately, but I've been doing a lot of planning and stuff on how I want the game to look, making the story a little deeper (well, according to people that I've shared the basic idea with. i still think it's a little shallow, but then, i tend to think everything i'm doing is stupid, so.), changing character designs and then changing them back (seriously, there's only two who have kept their changes, and the changes for each of them were both extremely minor), uh... deciding to draw my backgrounds and then changing my mind, and so on. I guess I have this whole thing planned out, and have for a long time, but the bastard hides from me half the time. At least I've finally decided on the title, which I guess is an improvement over calling it "my retarded story" all of the time. I really wonder if anyone is going to like this thing when it's done, since my motives are pretty much entirely selfish, but I'm not going to let that stop me, because like I said, MY MOTIVES ARE ENTIRELY SELFISH. AHAHAHA. SO I WILL INCLUDE ALL OF THE OBNOXIOUS TWISTS AND ANGST AND STUPID JOKES THAT I WANT AND NO ONE CAN STOP ME! NO ONE! Except myself. But I don't think I will stop myself. I should stop rambling and do something productive, haha.

As of March 12, 2008, this project is still ALIVE~ I promise. But once again, I've had to rewrite the first day, so I'm still at around the same place as before. It's longer now, but STILL. Ahaha. I'd rather not bump this thread until I've actually made some real progress, so I'll just edit this first post. I just wanted to let anyone who cares enough to check this thread know that I've not given up yet! Not that I think I will, I'm far too stubborn for that. The legend will never die! Maybe just go into what looks like a coma since uluuu is too shy or something to tell anyone her ideas. Uluuu also wonders what she was thinking when she came up with her username, it's dumb. DIGRESSION! But... yeah. This is totally being worked on, and it'll be done when it's done, cause that's how I roll~

Writing! Day one and two are is done, now (November 28th, 2007). I rushed through the second day so in it's current state it was very short and very lame, so I'm fixing it now. I have to remember to only write when I am in the mood to do so, otherwise it turns out awful and awkward...